when things get difficult

sometimes a person on the surface is really calm and composed others think that they are tough can handle anything and everything but what they don't understand is that under that calm surface there a storm raging .sometimes that person feels like bursting and saying what ever they feel like but end up keeping to themselves thinking that it might hurt the people around them they understand and keep happy the people around them and expect a little understanding in return they won't say anything they just want their loved ones to understand there unsaid words and comfort them ............................

want my peace back

its so difficult to understand life sometimes things gets so painful and confusing .then there comes a point where u become numb to everything things hrt u but u don't feel the pain u know what is right u want to do the right thing but some how u cant make ur self do it .its like each and every moment u are drifting away from reality in ur thought making up a world where there is no pain everything is so bright and colorful when u know in the end one day u will have to come out of your fair tale land and face the reality but right now my not ready to wake up ready to face the reality maybe because i have waited long for things to get better in real expected from people but every broken hope and trust pushed me away from reality.the ones who are close to me say that m not the same happy and playful person they used to know .i know they are worried and they want to know what happened but i don't know how to open up myself to anyone .its not that i don't like my life or my work i like it but i don't know there is a feeling that something is missing there is a huge pain in my heart and i know the reason of the pain but i don''t know how to mend what i have ruined i know He's waiting for me at the same point where i left just waiting patiently to turn back run and embrace Him .i know the moment ill do that my heart will find the peace its looking for but it seems like i forgot the way back home in His comfort where i just can say and He will listen . i know He's listening now also and will always listen He

 wants to talk to me but maybe i just isolated my self from the peace i had once the strength i used to give to other the light and peace i used to reflect seems to be left behind some where .no there's  just fear .fear of everything of past of present of future of thing i used to over rule before .

now all i want to do is to look back and find the way home to get my peace where i lost it